Loneliness or is it Solitude???

Definations
lone·ly
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(l n l )
adj. lone·li·er, lone·li·est
1.
a. Without companions; lone.
b. Characterized by aloneness; solitary.


sol·i·tude
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(s l -t d , -ty d )
n.
1. The state or quality of being alone or remote from others.


Lonliness and Solitude; have been pondering over these two words for quite some time. It has been a debate raging within to define my current state of life. Am I lonely ? Or is it Solitude? People around me think I am lonely whilst I argue am in my solitude.
Per me being lonely is a being away from people you love and being in solitude is being away from the people you desist. I lead a life which wanders on the thin edge dividing those. To people around me they assume me being lonely given my failed relationship and absence of a famiily around me. But then my relationship never failed just that it never worked out. Social obligations and situations as I call them was made them fall apart.Or perhaps I am wrong…..lest I take umbrage in being ignorant.

In solitude I remain

with absolutely nothing to gain;

perhaps in time I will be strong!

Solitude is not my favourite song

A solitary place Is not where I belong

Read my lips and trace the lines on my face

You see! Solitude is not my favourite song

But social isolation Combined with social manipulation

Places me once again in solitude You see!

Solitude is not my preferred attitude

This isn’t a journey of spiritual enlightenment

As some people might say to my resentment

But in great loneliness of this magnitude

I must find some self awareness in solitude

I must find strength and pretend

That everyone around me is my friend

To put this state of scale of elevation to an end

I must pretend,

I must pretend

That even Solitude is my friend

~ Sylvia Chidi